A Introductory Mix of the Last Six Months of Srila Prabhupada Being Present
After his morning sponge bath, he was ready for darshan. Bhakti Prem Swami returned. Srila Prabhupada gave him the largest, toothiest smile and touched him on the head.
Srila Prabhupada circumambulated the temple twice. The palanquin had been made more spacious and Prabhupada was pleased.
Earlier someone had left a bottle of oil beneath the bed ,and I knocked it over, and Prabhupada was angry. He said,
“Ten rupees, wasted”.
One black god brother led Guru-Sastikam softly and sweetly.
“Very good!” Said Prabhupada while rocking his head on the pillow and his hands folded on his chest.
These last few months have been heavy on all of us. But especially His Divine Grace. How can we imagine the intense frustration and physical burden he feels at being bed ridden? As Krishna said for a warrior, dishonor is worse than death. So, for Srila Prabhupada not being able to preach. We cannot even imagine his frustration.
This evening he asked for Tohsan Krishna. I said that he was not here, neither he nor his wife.
“No, he is my secretary”. said Prabhupada.
“Was your secretary? He is a grhastha?” I said,
“He was a grhastha”. said Prabhupada.
I presume it was another Tohsan Krishna. Later again he asked saying.
I then understood then that he meant Tamal Krishna.
Srila Prabhupada spoke with Hamsadutta about Ceylon. He said,
“What is your program?”
He encouraged him to institute a program like Kirtananda Swami has done in New Vrndavana in the USA.
He asked Tamal about the banking business and if Giriraja and Brahmananda had returned. Even in his invalid condition, he is thinking of the maintenance and welfare of his movement.
He cleaned his mouth this morning and Tamal read the most recent calculation of his astrological chart.
He said that today is the most negative influence, today and tomorrow. He is speaking to us in spaced words. Once he asked to be moved. However, he said it in Bengali.
Hamsadutta asked about the program in Ceylon. Prabhupada said,
“Not only Ceylon, but everywhere. Live simply and with extra time chant Hare Krishna. Do not become modern with these machines. Do not waste this human life. Do good to others, do not exploit others. Any human being has the capacity to chant Hare Krishna given a chance. Make situations favorable”.
He spoke with Brahmananda about Africa, asking especially to have Pusta Krishna brought back. His voice was not only weak but was like lasts breaths. He cried and was totally selfless. He said that Cintamani and Hare Krishna, these two songs should be sung in this room.
As I recorded, the small recorder slipped from the case hitting Srila Prabhupada near his collar bone, and he said, “Be careful”. In such a resigned voice that it was obvious he did not want to waste time in his last moments by chastising me. A few moments later he mentioned to everyone there that his watch be given to me.
Even though today is a most negative day, he certainly is resting deeply without cough. He is taking juice twice a day too. Harisauri is writing down almost everything. Tamal asked if the bed could be turned to face east toward the Deities. Prabhupada replied. “I have no objection”. I applied oil to his head and he requested charitamrita.
In the evening, he asked for Krishna das Babaji. After speaking with Tamal it was settled that Narayan Maharaj should come and be in charge of samadhi arrangements and ceremony.
Asked by Tamal about Parikrama. Srila Prabhupada asked Tamal if he thought it could be done. Tamal said it would be difficult and it would be better to just do Parikrama around Sri Krishna and Balarama. He spoke a little with Bhagavat and Bhakti Charu. He called again for Krishna das Babaji late at night
After calling Narayana Maharaj and Madhava Maharaj, he spoke with them in Bengali, begging their forgiveness if any offences were committed in the course of his preaching. Devotees crowded around Srila Prabhupada’s bed to see and hear his voice.
“Did not fight amongst yourselves. Cooperate together”.