Srila Prabhupada’s

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Was Srila Prabhupada Systematically “Positioned”?

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Prologue81” “82” “83”  “84” “85”  “86

Segment 062

Bhaktijana Dasa,

Vrindavana, 1976 Part 4

Then, in one letter, I wrote back to Srila Prabhupada and I said,

 “If you want me to work with black people; I will.  But if you do not; I do not have any attachment.  I will do whatever you say.”

Nevertheless, Wow!  This is what he wrote back in the letter;

“Go and preach to the black community.”

I was really kind of shocked.  Very shocked.  But I was very happy as well because it made me feel very good.  Srila Prabhupada was always very, very nice to me.  I just do not know what else to say.  Srila Prabhupada was very, very nice and ISKCON authorities were very, very, terrible to me; simply terrible.

I never had experiences in my life like I had with ISKCON authorities.  Thrown out of temples with no money, in strange cities.  After I called them and asked the temple president if I could come and they said “yes”; they invited me.  Yet I was still thrown out. 

I was invited to go to Montreal temple by the president.  I heard that Brahmananda said, that I should never live in an ISKCON temple for the rest of my life.  He said I was not qualified.  So I inquired why did he say that?  Maybe for some reason he did say it.  Yes, I concluded that he said I was just not fit to live in a temple.  So I thought maybe I am not. 

So I said,

“I will come up to your temple and help if Brahmananda agrees.  Please talk to Brahmananda because I just wanted to see why he said that.” 

I called the Montreal temple back, and they said no; do not come up here.  I asked why; and they said we just do not want you here.  So I do not know what Brahmananda said.  Nevertheless, they do not want me for some reason they believe in.  I could never understand that kind of dealing then: and to this day, I still do not. 

However, now I know why they do it.  I could not believe that devotees were like that; that holy people were like that.  Now I understand; but it really put me through a lot of changes.  I did not think that devotees were just bums off the street.  I thought devotees were special.  Anyways, they are now becoming a little special. 

But I always tell them that as far as I am concerned, they are nothing.  I am nothing, they are nothing.  We are bums and Prabhupada gave us a little potency and we get puffed-up immediately, because we are conditioned souls.  I just do not see anybody as fantastic except Srila Prabhupada.

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